19, good looking, never had gf, still a virgin
I know calling myself good looking is going to come off as extremely narcissistic but I've been told by ppl, friends, friends of friends so I'll just assume I'm a little above average.
I'm 5'11 pretty fit - not massive but go to the gym often. I had lots of things here and there in high school but never wanted to commit to a relationship - just felt like a lot of unnecessary drama and I just didn't feel like girls were an important part of my life. Yes, I found some girls hot and I'd talk to them for like two weeks and then lose interest (had a very bad grass is greener on the other side mentality). I feel like there was also a part of my Asian upbringing - had very cool parents but academic pressure things like that kind of shifted my focus away from relationships. I go to a t10 college now so I don't regret focusing on academics during hs but idk just feels like i missed out on smth.
I'm a sophomore now, and for the first time in my life, I feel like I want to be in a relationship. And not some tinder one-night shit but an actual committed relationship. All my hs friends are halfway across the world and I had my first yr of college online so I suddenly have this emptiness in my life right now. I'm usually very confident but with 0 relationship experience, I'm just not sure how to go forward with my situation.
Idk just wanted to write my thoughts somewhere. Appreciate any advice/comments