Bored out of my mind
Didn't manage to get into a/EB/MM because of lack of relevant experience despite good/excellent academics. I ended up at a boutique which is more of a - I don't work hours, and I don't get paid IBD comp. The work itself is repetitive and although I am consistently asking for more work, I find myself having literally nothing to do at times, so I just endlessly browse the web and read WSO. This feels more like a "lifestyle" job. The team is friendly, we have lots of perks, but the work in itself is slow-paced. And I'm bored out of my mind. I've been trying to lateral to BB/EBs to go through the actual IBD grinder and get nice exit opps, without much luck for the moment.
I feel kind of lost. Not even sad, but I feel like I'm waiting for something that's not coming and I don't know what to do. It's kind of ironic that I want to work 100 hours a week but don't even have the opportunity to do so, isn't it? I feel like I'm wasting my time, that life "hasn't started yet". I lack momentum and am bored out of my mind. What the fuck should I do?