In a matter of about a month I managed to take upwards of 150 Xanax, drank a lot of alcohol, did a lot of stimulants, burned through a gram or two daily of mary-jane and burnt a few bridges.
I'm tired of being a strung out, unreliable douche but feel like my life since I was 15 has revolved around partying. I was in a fraternity so all my friends are still into boozing and I haven't had sober sex since sophomore year of college. I'm now a 25 year old man with pretty much no meaningful relationships that aren't forged and fueled through partying and booze/drugs.
For those that eventually grew up - how did you do it? What do you do on weekends? How do you meet people? Ideally I find a girl I like and slowly force her into the role as my caretaker and a hybrid mother/lover to soothe and heal my wounds. Any advice on how to accomplish this? As of recently I've been spending 7 - 11pm sitting in my room alone watching live music on YouTube but I know I'm not gonna last like this.
Advice to the Undergrads: Don't be like me. Make friends through your clubs, find people you have sober hobbies in common with and notice your substance intake. If you find yourself in a position where the only thing you have in common with everybody at your party is that you're all drunk, you're probably on track to end up like me, and I'm miserable.