I HAVE NEVER FELT SO LOST IN MY LIFE
I am a recent graduate from the furthest school from a target. Iwork experience. I never had a single internship. I was always working full-time jobs in college and was always more focused on making money than thinking about my future career. I somehow, miraculously, squeezed my way into a MM M&A firm. I am currently an "analyst on trial". Upon completion of 3 months of work, the firm will decide if they want to bring me on full time. I am working my ass off, but I haven't felt more lost in my life. I honestly have no idea what I am doing. It takes me forever to do simple tasks. My accounting knowledge is virtually nil and I am basically freaking out. I was given this golden opportunity and I feel like I am fucking it up. I am not sure if they expected to me to know absolutely nothing. I didn't lie on my resume or give misleading information. I just sold myself really well and killed the interview. I am learning more now than I have ever learned in my life, but how can I become more proficient??? Any suggestions in order to help me catch this learning curve quicker? Because I feel like the rug is being pulled out from beneath me and this may be the only opportunity I get in IB. ANY ADVICE WOULD BE GREATLY APPRECIATED!!