Spending money on others makes me happy
I always grew up wanting to be rich. It wasn't because I was poor or anything like that, but I had a normal middle class class upbringing in a 4 person family (mom, dad, little sister and me). Growing up my parents made sure I never wanted for anything. They always pushed me to participate in sports such as ice hockey which is a regular part of any Canadian kid's upbringing. For those who don't know, Ice hockey is a fucking expensive sport to enroll your kids in. My parents never truly "struggled" financially, but they both had normal 9-5 jobs. They worked away to put me through private schools, and then footed my entire college bill!
Fast forward to now and I am in my mid-20s. I am finally making good money, but I find the most enjoyment in treating my parents, family and close friends to things. In college I'd look forward to the day I get my first big boy bonus and buying something stupid like a Rolex or something flashy. That day came... I bought a rolex and I felt... nothing. I barely even wear the stupid thing because it doesn't match how I was brought up. It's too flashy and I feel embarrassed/weird wearing it around my friends and family. Now I don't mind wearing it to work because all my "work bros" won't judge me, but they aren't my real friends.
I just was wondering if anybody else feels this way? Specifically, I mean growing up poor or middle class and then coming across some money only to realize that you don't really care about material things. To me, money is only a way to ensure that my family will never be in trouble and if any expenses were to arise... we'd be okay. To me money is just a means to make sure my family is happy and healthy.
I remember footing the bill for a big family dinner at a diner and that was way more fulfilling than buying a fucking rolex!
EDIT: A couple people asking for money. If you are female please PM feet pics with red nail polish & we can chat about me wiring some funds your way. Cheers