Hi Everyone ~ it's been awhile since I've been on here. I've only told one person from WSO about this but many months ago, there was post that I've posted under an unknown user and in the post, I was contemplating of committing suicide. Patrick Curtis was the first to respond to my post and made a comment that he was here for me and even provided me his number via private chat. I thanked him...
My dream was to become a Navy SEAL
I lost my job as a trader at a hedge fund, mainly trading natural gas. Prior to that, I was working in front, middle and back in NYC. I've worked my way up... came from nothing. Hell, I didn't even graduate college. I did horrible in high school, coming from an abusive father, where all he did was drink and beat me everyday. My dream growing up was to become a Navy SEAL... I have a buddy of mine, who wanted to become a Marine but I told him back in high school to become a SEAL and he did. I recently found him on Linkedin and just seeing his picture, as a SEAL made me so envious.
I asked myself, do I really see myself working in finance? I've worked at Barclays on their equities floor in front office in NYC. Coming in every morning at 7am, hearing the sales people talk about their research on the loud speaker, seeing the sales trader on the phone, though traders hasn't come in yet... it was fast pace and dynamic... I loved it but after being there for 5 months, I asked myself... What is so fucking great about this? I'm constantly on the phone, talking trades, staring at 3 monitors and my eyes are starting to bleed (Not Literally).
So after all these years and watching my friend fulfill my dream, I've made a conscious decision to leave finance (for now). I'm getting shipped out to the Army for Special Forces. I've been in the Navy for 8 years now to become a SEAL and the current rate is overmanned for my year group, hence why I'm transitioning to the Army. I'll be leaving soon and I wanted to thank everyone for helping me over the years to get where I want to be in finance. I may not be a hot shot trader pulling in millions but someone like me, who came from nothing was given the opportunity to work in front office and actually trade for a hedge fund and all of the learning that I've gathered over the years was from WSO.... From you guys.
Take care everyone and follow your dreams. The worst thing a man can do in life is to regret. No body wants to be 70 years old and ask what if... hence why I'm making this decision to go into the military to serve with high flying guys.
You control your own destiny
For those who are lonely and don't have a clear path in finance. DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. Don't sit around and feeling sorry for yourself. I've spent years alone without family and friends because all I ever wanted to do was "make it". I took on python classes, read countless trading books on derivatives. it was literally non-stop. No one owes you anything in life. You control your own destiny. So make a move. I don't the know what that move is but do something. For me, I've realized I will regret not being in special operations when I get older hence why I'm making this move.
Hell, it may not be finance but I can always go back to it afterwards or who knows? Maybe go into the agencies or go to medical school after being trained as a SF combat medic. Decide your own path. Don't think money is everything because it was for me, initially. Hence why I wanted to be a trader so bad. But as I got older, I've realized money isn't everything. Family and friends will get older and some day, they won't be around anymore. Make yourself happy and don't take time for granted.