what's WRONG with me??
I am writing because I so appreciate the honesty of your posts....
I left school two years ago with a Master's degree from a target school.... When I was in School I did everything I should have done to maybe stand a chance in the financial services industry: the target school, the internships at top tier banks, the perfect gpa etc.
Upon graduation, in the middle of a recession I interned for a bit at a French bank and it became clear that they would renew my internship but not hire me.... So I panicked and started looking for jobs....took the first I was offered.
It wasn't at a top bank and it was not exactly what I wanted to do but it was a front office position and it would give me good exposure, right? So I joined.... Turns out the desk did not want a junior ...they just wanted an assistant and because it's not a top tier bank they dont have analyst programmes that make you evolve...so ive been doing the same shit for a year and a half now, my team is quite horrible (think boiler-room personnalities, loud, ignorant etc) and worst of all, I have no way of progressing here
Im only young so I dont mind, I keep faith and I do my best so they're pleased with me and in the meantime I look for jobs elsewhere...but nothing works.... I dont get many interviews because there arent many jobs...and when I do its always the same speech: I get amazing feedback but im too junior / too senior / headcount has not been approved
My last hopes were crashed last week and i feel so ...fucked...i dont know what to do because the longer I stay in this role the harder it will be for me to get out but on the other hand i cant resign without anything planned next.
So i dont know what to do, I really try so hard...I wonder whether I should give up on Finance or keep trying whilst knowing it'll only get harder?