Dealing with LonelinessSubscribe
Preface: I’m not seeking anyone’s pity here - just want to know if anyone has been in a similar situation and how they dealt with it.
I’m currently a 2nd year IB analyst, working at a MM shop. My hours are just about as bad as anybody else’s, and I’ve just found the 80 hour work weeks to be nearly unbearable during this time.
I’m not sure how to deal with my stress on the job, and all I do is sulk in it in my studio. I come from a rough background - lost my mom when I was a kid and my dad somewhat recently. I clawed my way into IB from a non-target and was lucky to get a shot. I would say my mental health was always in pretty decent shape throughout my analyst stint. Recently however, it has taken everything in me not to break down from the stress, and it’s impacting my work quality/ ability to think clearly. I don’t have much family in the states and have no friends in the city I relocated to for this job.
I want to continue to be the top-bucket, hard-working non-target kid that I’ve been since I started, but I just can’t stare at my screen anymore. I can’t quit because I need the money.. my savings won’t last long in this city.
I need help, I feel alone, and don’t know where to turn. I have no family, and no friends nearby. I’m afraid of opening up to a fellow analyst in fear that they would tell somebody else (mind you there are only a couple other analysts). Not being able to go out very much has uncovered some underlying pain.
Has anyone else gone through something similar? How did you get through it? By quitting? Moving closer to home?