Sitting in my dorm at 2am, typing an article for my WSO internship before going back to my assignment (that hopefully wont fuck up my) which I will barely have time to hand in to my non-target college tomorrow after running home from my Ops internship. 3 hours sleep tonight if I'm lucky.
I know it makes me a sound like a whiny little bitch to even mention this in a thread, but I'm not here to whine, I'm here to make a point..
Its times like these where the only thing between me and an average career is belief in myself, and faith that, in a few years, none of this will matter and I'll be making good money in a field I've been drawn to since I can remember (I know 3 hours sleep would be considered good should I make it). I don't think about failing to get a job in IB, because whenever the doubt crawls into my mind quitting seems like the easier option, especially when you're facing the gigantic fucking bottleneck that is IB recruiting. I know Im not special, I know there are thousands others like me in the exact same position working as hard or even harder; driven by their belief.
In very few other vocations is such a belief needed to keep on going, the light at the end of the tunnel is brighter, that is. Most of us won't get half as far as we like to think in IB, but we keep on going anyway.
How do you stay motivated when shit gets on top of you? Aside from all the 'deep' shit I talked about, I find music to be one of the best things...