Feeling like ending it

Feel like shit. Didn’t get an offer for a job in 12 months that I wanted but that was just the catalyst. Had a special family event recently and took time off and felt miserable the whole time, stressed and unwell, once in a lifetime event was one of the worst weeks of my life, felt like a fool. Working as a soon to be second year analyst, don’t know as much as people think I do. Family problems starting to kick in now too, parents health and wellness is going down hill. Don’t have a girlfriend. Everything I do is forced. Break in to tears whenever I see my parents instead of being happy, I think I am weak. Feeling increasingly alone in the world.

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Please don’t… I’m really sorry you feel this way and I can’t imagine the burden you must be feeling right now. Know that you don’t have to shoulder this alone and there are mental health professionals who are just one call away. Your life is valuable and there is a community of people who’ll help you through this. Hope to hear from you soon man.

 

I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way. Life can be incredibly tough sometimes, and it's okay to feel overwhelmed. You're not weak for having these emotions—you're human. It can help to talk to someone you trust about what you're going through. Sharing your thoughts and feelings can lighten the load and make you feel less alone.

 

Practical advice:
- Get into both running and gym, and fast. Do it so frequently that it quickly becomes part of your identity, so you can confidently say “I am a runner. I am an athlete.”
- There is a clear causal link between depression and lower rates of exercise, which we often overlook when we’re attributing our unhappiness to external factors
- Running will make you feel good through endorphin release, enabling you to be better equipped to start challenging the truthfulness of those narratives you keep telling yourself
- Increase the amount of sleep you’re getting by at least a few hours (aim to reach 7-8 hours as a long-term average) - this is often a hugely overlooked causal factor
- Know that we are largely a product of the stories we tell ourselves - these drive our emotions
- The good news is that this means our emotions are within our control: you get to decide how you want to feel about something. Even something you’ve previously judged as horribly bad, you can decide “actually, now that I really think about it, it’s absolutely fine.”
- I can already see in your message that you’ve constructed some BS views of yourself that ignore evidence to the contrary, along with some massive positives about you that should be highlighted, like we all do before we learn to check ourselves
- Fixing your inner state, by focusing on what you can control - your own thoughts and your actions, will make it easier to embrace the multitude of things you can’t control: what other people say, think, and do; and what happens to them and what happens to you
- Positive relationships with other people will come as a welcome byproduct - they will intuitively sense your newfound inner tranquility and gravitate towards it

- Please DM me with your progress. I’ve spent years of my life thinking about this and practicing it - it will get you out of this rut and feeling a hell of a lot better about life.

 
Plaxo3

endorphins are a hormone that "help relive pain

to relive pain means to go through pain again - I know what you mean tho

"If you always put limits on everything you do, physical or anything else, it will spread into your work and into your life. There are no limits. There are only plateaus, and you must not stay there, you must go beyond them." - Bruce Lee
 

Pray and read the Bible… if nothing else is working why not give it a try. Look to something beyond this world.

 

I’d give a lot to be in your shoes. You’re top 10% in the world just for being in IB.

It is a timeless fact that if you find people around you that need help, turn outward, you’ll “magically” become happier.

 

Call 911 if you are thinking of ending it to be taken to psychiatric care at a hospital. It sounds like you have severe depression. Definitely see a psychiatrist to get through this and maybe get on meds and behavioral therapy.

"If you always put limits on everything you do, physical or anything else, it will spread into your work and into your life. There are no limits. There are only plateaus, and you must not stay there, you must go beyond them." - Bruce Lee
 

One, see a professional.  Two, see a professional that prioritizes talk over pills. Three, change your worldview to focus on contentment over happiness.  The former is a steady state while happiness is a fleeting feeling.  If you place a priority on baseline rather than a temporary feeling you can radically shift your brain chemistry.  This has been proven to stabilize dopamine regulation which is the long term goal.

 

Please, please do not harm yourself. Call or text 988 to speak to a professional and seek help.  You can always take medical leave if necessary and get some time to clear your head and chart a new path. 
 

You could very likely benefit from therapy and possibly some medication in the near time while you work thru some of these issues. 
 

Bro - no matter what you are going thru, there are people that care about you. Shit, there are people on this forum, that don’t even know you that will jump on a phone with you.  
 

Turning points are difficult - we all have them. Don’t make a permanent decision - your best days have yet to come if you choose to help yourself.

 

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