Recruiting Successfully Does Mean Happiness

Landed a GS offer in NY this recruiting cycle - I'm extremely grateful that the recruiting grind is finally over which gave me some time to reflect on this whole process of gunning.

I personally know people who will be going to MS NY, Evercore Menlo, and GS NY this summer and I used to think they have it all and if I were to have an offer like theirs, I'd be complete as a human.

However, I recently found out that these people are struggling internally too and some even have existential crisis about whether they are truly happy with where they are in life but can't talk about it because they are suppose to be the people that won this cruel game of recruitment.

I am not a loser like them - I've always thought that once I land a good offer at a good firm - I'd be happy. And I am. I survived the recruiting grind but at what cost? Mild elation, my anxiety levels are always on the floor even until now, and an incredible diet.

I think about moments when I was a kid when my greatest achievement was being able to finish a pitch-deck a day, my mom will be cooking in the kitchen, and she will come in and pick up my pitch-deck, and tell me I've done a wonderful job, and then throwing it in the bin - giving me the real life experience that I needed to land a job at Goldman Sachs.

Over and over again.