Desperate need of help
I will try to keep this as brief as possible but it may be a bit of a ramble so sorry in advance.
I finished up school and am another new banking analyst. Ever since moving to the city (I'm not NYC) to start this new job and life I've felt so lonely. I don't know anyone where I am and our office is very small so no other analysts really to be friends with. I have a really good relation with my parents and honestly loved living at home (I was an only child as well). I could do whatever I wanted and had a lot of physical space. I also just felt at "home" always if that makes sense.
I know my parents will not be around forever and I need to learn on being independent and alone, but I can't shake this feeling of depression being so alone and not knowing any one. On one hand, I think "just a year or so analyst stint, I'll be so busy anyway to think" but what about after that? Yeah I will likely go Corp Dev or something chill at some point, but I realize my problem is feeling so dependent.
Maybe I'm a giant pussy and I deserve to be laughed at and told to man up. I don't know if this feeling is normal and it just goes away after being a 23 year old. The thing is I also didn't have a ton of friends back home either but I never felt lonely. Not even once. I felt so comfortable with where I was and what I was doing. Weekends I don't even look forward to because it's just me and silence even though I was sort of okay with that back home being around my family (not just parents but my entire extended family in the area too).
TLDR: I'm lonely in a new city. I'm scared for my future and if I will ever be able to feel independent and being away from my family that I love. But I'm not sure if just pushing through IB and then exiting to a job back near home is a solution as my parents are getting older and may not be around in 20 yeas god forbid.