This Fucking Sucks

Hey guys, ranting/venting here so if you don't to hear someone crying like a bitch you can kindly keep scrolling. Have a great day.

So I know there was a recent thread of a guy going through tough times and I don't want to hijack that but I just needed to let this out. I'm a freshman in college, and with my school's super strict restrictions (like probation/dismissal for going out) meeting people has been damn near impossible since we can't go anywhere so my life basically consists of schoolwork, doing finance clubs which tbh I couldn't give two shits about right now, and training for baseball (trying to walk on). And the cherry on top is that I injured my back while training, and after four months of rehab I fucking injured it again today. So I don't know what the hell the future looks like. Months of recovery down the drain. I'm so uncertain about the future and this might sound lame and depressing as hell but you monkeys are honestly some of my best friends even though I don't even know your names. I spend time on WSO not only for the helpful info, but I honestly feel like part of a community even though I'm a wimpy freshman. I know I know, corny as fuck, so I'm prepared for the onslaught for the MS saying I'm a bitch or just trying to draw attention. And I know I don't have it half as bad as some of you folks in IB, but I understand the feeling of being just sort of numb to life in general. It's just heartbreaking to see all that work go to basically shit but that's life. Like I said, I've met basically no one in college except for people in finance clubs who are all complete hardasses so you guys are the closest thing I have to friends at the moment (even the total pricks on this forum), and I think the isolation + super bumpy road of healing is getting to me. Is it sad? Yes. But hopefully soon I can actually meet people and get training back on track. I will continue to scour this forum for helpful insight but more importantly when I need a good laugh from some retard who trolled fat chicks on Tinder. I love you monkeys.

Comments (45)

 
Feb 19, 2021 - 11:02am

Can't imagine how hard it is to be a college freshman right now. Glad to hear that you have a positive outlook - when you're in a low place like this, looking after your mental health is so crucial. Call your parents, or another family member that you can be open with, and talk to them regularly; find a hobby that you like and try to get good at it (playing an instrument, writing, photography, etc.); join a club or two that isn't finance related - you'll probably meet cooler people and it'll help in interviews down the road; even something as simple as reminding yourself of 3 things you're thankful for first thing when you wake up every morning can have a positive impact in this type of situation. 

 

I know you didn't ask for advice, but as someone who has felt the impact of not looking after your mental health, it's important to me. Keep up the positive outlook, things will always get better.

 
Feb 19, 2021 - 3:07pm

OP, always remember that the difficulties of others do not invalidate your own.

It really annoys me when people say "don't complain, you could be starving in Africa" (as an example). It's irrelevant how others are doing. To relate this to you: you're having a really shitty time right now and it's absolutely fine to be pissed off or fed up over it. It's okay to feel down.

 
Feb 19, 2021 - 3:07pm

Are you gunning for IB? 

 

This rehab story for baseball is a good story to mention while recruiting / interviews, especially if you do make it onto your school's baseball team and you guys aren't some middle of the nowhere program. 

 
  • Prospect in IB-M&A
Feb 19, 2021 - 3:11pm

Yeah it's a Big 10 that's top 25 this year. I'm fairly confident I could have made it this year as a freshman (I'm a pitcher, and from a raw ability I'm basically the same as the starters so I could have been a reliever or closer), but I wanted to give myself an extra year of training so I could turn some heads my sophomore year. And yes, I am strongly considering IB.

 
Feb 19, 2021 - 3:34pm

You'll do fantastic in recruiting. Athletes have a big leg up in recruiting, just make sure you're on that roster and actually playing so you can say something about it. 

 

You have 3 more years to make all the friends you'll ever want. Don't sweat it.

 
Feb 20, 2021 - 10:36am

My thoughts exactly while reading. Few things are more sought after than perseverance. Keep on the grind my man. Whether you know it yet or not you are making major life strides right now that you will never forget. Stay confident and it will pay off.

 
Feb 19, 2021 - 4:31pm

I feel you, man. I'm a junior right now and understand what you're feeling to some extent. It's been almost a year since I've been on campus or have met someone new. That feeling of lonliness I relate to more than you know. If you ever just want to vent/talk about shit you can always pm me.

 
Feb 19, 2021 - 4:55pm

Take it easy bro, hop on the phone with friends and family to just chat you'll be surprised how many people are as lonely as you are rn. Someday you'll look back and you won't even be able to remember why you felt so bad that one time. 

To live is to suffer, to survive is to find some meaning in the suffering.

 
  • Analyst 3+ in PE - Other
Feb 19, 2021 - 5:01pm

We love you too you fucking retard. Sorry about your freshman year getting stumped by this covid bullshit. But we'll all make it through this. Just think of how satisfying it'll be to lord this over future generations when they dare complain to be bored.

 
  • Intern in IB-M&A
Feb 19, 2021 - 5:05pm

Senior here and yeah I think seniors and freshman got shafted the hardest. We're ending with a solid portion of our undergrad not being normal and I definitely understand freshman year being tough without having the same type of social life as before. 

 
  • Prospect in IB-M&A
Feb 19, 2021 - 5:36pm

Yeah I think it sucks for everyone but freshman and seniors in particular. I don't think college seniors will be able to have graduation (funny because COVID also ruined my HS senior year, both the whole baseball season and graduation cancelled) which is complete bullshit.

 
  • Intern in IB-M&A
Feb 19, 2021 - 5:50pm

Yeah last March when I was a junior we thought how much it sucked to be a senior then and basically make the most out of the last few days before everyone went home, and nobody thought we'd have a similar (non) graduation a year later too. I finally had some money and freedom after my junior internship and return offer to enjoy the rest of college and I feel like I'm wasting it. I feel grateful to be in a position to have a job + some money which is more than lot of people can say rn, but man it sucks to think about going from this shitty college end right into the banking life in a few months too. Feels good to rant a little at least.

 
Feb 20, 2021 - 1:03am

I definitely feel that man. As a senior, it has been pretty tough as well. I know you mentioned that your college has strict restrictions for meeting people, but you might want to consider skirting the rules possibly (obviously don't meet in large groups but I usually go for 1-2 ppl). Super important to have social interaction for your mental health man

 
Feb 20, 2021 - 5:06am

1) the harder you study/work while in college, the better your life will be after college. treat it as a necessary sacrifice if you want to enjoy your life in the future.

2) how the fuck are you training to injure your back twice in your 18-20yo? your body is as invincible right now as it will ever be. start every training with a proper warmup. train with a professional who can check what and how you're doing.

 
  • Prospect in IB-M&A
Feb 20, 2021 - 9:43am

First time was just an unlucky rep on a heavy deadlift (455) and the second was re-aggravating it after landing wrong on a broad jump

 
Feb 20, 2021 - 2:28pm

relax with deadlifting. you're not gonna surprise anybody with ruining your health by pulling 455.

I've been working out since ~14yo and I am in a great shape, and I do like 250 as a regular weight on 8-10 reps. I see people who look way worse than me (fat with much less muscle with big guts) doing twice my weights on all the exercises, and I don't see the point. They're hurting their health and they look like shit. Better drop weight to whatever you can do comfortably and enjoy working out and strengthening your health instead of killing yourself.

 
  • Analyst 1 in S&T - Equities
Feb 20, 2021 - 12:36pm

It's a shame that these schools are destroying your experience (while raising tuition YoY at most). Feel for you. Hopefully by next year they calm down. Can't really see why they would have these restrictions in place next year for the segment of society that is largely unaffected by this from a personal health perspective. 

Anecdotal but my grandparents are in a retirement community where basically everyone is vaccinated at this point (FL). There are very little restrictions, less than most colleges. It's becoming pathetic that 18 year olds are being treated this way. 

 
Feb 22, 2021 - 4:15pm

Also can't imagine the "college experience" (or lack thereof) during covid. The real shame of it is that students have absolutely nothing to gain from restrictions imposed to "keep you safe." Hoe does the university enforce a no going out policy, anyway? Seems really really stupid...

 
  • Analyst 1 in S&T - Equities
Feb 22, 2021 - 4:25pm

It's mostly lib cities/universities going overboard, go figure. Pretty sure most southern/FL schools are chilling. 

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