Really sad about growing up
I really like all the people I work with at my bank, and I really like the industry (RX) in general too.
I've really enjoyed myself this summer, but I can't help but feel insanely depressed about growing up. I was born in 2000, and I remember my life from 2006 to 2012 vividly...everything was so magical. I guess it's like that as a kid. I'd watch shit like Star Wars and Ironman, and it was real. I'm sure you were all like that at some point. High school was super fun too, but now I just feel so depressed about knowing that I'm going to grow up and die. I mean, I always knew it would happen, but I suppose it took going into an office building doing corp work everyday to really feel it.
I love being an adult, but sometimes I wish I could have just been a little kid forever...
Every single person feels this way, unless they had an unusually traumatic childhood. It’s part of growing up. I’m not trying to minimize it for you, I know it sucks. Big time. But part of being an adult is accepting it for what it is, and finding a way to appreciate your childhood, but not reach for recreating it. If you do that, it will become a real problem. You can’t be a man-child. That’s not fun for anyone
Had an unusually traumatic childhood. I'm still sad about growing up. Just sad that I will never get to experience the childhood that my friends and colleagues experienced.
I also had a rough go of it as a kid. I have a great job with a great company and great colleagues. But damn I’d love to be 10 again. Not even to change anything in my past, just to relive childhood. Silver lining I guess is being an adult makes me excited to have kids one day.
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A few things here and advice for younger posters. This is a great post because this feeling is real, very common, and sucks!
Best is yet to come if you want it to and hold out long enough you guys, I promise.
I’ve felt this way many times. I remember when I was 16 or 17 feeling sad I wasn’t a 12 year old now. In college sometimes I missed high school. Now I graduated college and once I start working I’m going to miss college. I still find happiness sometimes in the present, but the more aware I become of my surroundings the more often I find myself feeling down.
One part that’s hard for me is seeing my parents and siblings age, they’re still all healthy and working and our relationship is honestly better now than it was compared to when I was young, but still makes me sad sometimes, and they’re not even really old yet (mid 50s, siblings mid to late 20s).
I stay in touch with my family including grandparents and visit whenever possible and make sure to try and be a good friend, son, and brother however possible.
The childish excitement I found easily a few years back is harder to find, but going to new beautiful places, seeing amazing landscapes, meeting new people and traveling with those I love brings those feelings back sometimes.
I’m excited to be a dad someday, my parents as first generation immigrants did a lot and achieved their version of the American dream including financial security So I don’t really have to work if I didn’t want to, but I have a different vision for my next generation and want to branch out for a few years to develop and mature.
One thing I feel my parents could have done better was cherish my own and my siblings childhood, but my dad worked so hard in the corporate world and my mom had to run the house with 3 kids and grandparents living together through health ailments and all, we often ate dinners alone and only travelled together if others were visiting us, never together as a family. We had all the private lessons we wanted, but my parents were so busy they couldn’t be there to cheer us on and enjoy the small moments much. I want to give my kids the world and also be there to foster their growth into hopefully virtuous and talented people.
One thing I try to make sure is I don’t miss the present. It’s easy to keep feeling bad about yesterday or anxiously awaiting tomorrow, but we live here, now. So try to find some happiness in that.
I try my best to refuse to become numb, and i often fail. We are here for a blink in time, I think we need to do all we can to appreciate that and make an impact wherever we can, the end of our lives are all guaranteed after all.
Being a kid has its perks, but I love being an independent adult. I suppose being educated and having a high paying job helps.
For example, as a kid, I was always mesmerized by cars at the Auto Show. Now I actually own cars that would be on display. Best part is, sometimes random kids will come up to me to check out one of my cars. I'll let them sit in the driver's seat and take a picture (if their parents allow).
I hope those kids get to be like me when they grow up.
I think the hardest part about this is coming to terms with how fast life goes by. It devastates me realizing that my parents have gotten old. It's so sad for me to compare pictures of when I was a kid with my mom and dad and siblings vs now. Everyone has aged so much and it just never stops. It sounds pretty dumb when I type it out, because duh, time goes by, but damn if it is not the most heart wrenching thing to think about. Sometimes it legitimately brings me to tears.
Enjoy every second you get with the people you care about. In the end, thats what will matter the most to me I think.