Depressed and looking for advice during FT recruiting

Did my stint this summer and went through some pretty awful things. Was so bad I got on SSRIs for the first time in my life and fwiw every friend in banking I’ve spoken to said that my experience was insane. That said, I don’t have a return offer. Getting on the SSRI recked my health for pretty much all of August and September and now it’s October and I have nothing. I don’t even know what to do. I’m so depressed and still honestly reeling from the summer and I have no offer when most FT stuff is over. Would love some advice on what to do. I’m so lost and I feel disgusted with myself and I’m so depressed that I can’t even begin to explain myself to my friends and family. Please tell me there’s hope and that I can get back on track. I just don’t know what o do. I don’t want to sound like one of those people who are like GS or bust, because im not. I just want a decent job. I worked my ass off to get into a target and to get that internship all to be treated in a way that I wouldn’t want my worst enemy to be treated. I would name and shame but I’m terrified of the people that work there