1st Year Analyst - Vent - take this personally or not?
I'm a first year analyst on a desk that interacts heavily with another team, call them Team B. One of my responsibilities is manning the phones as is common for first year S&Ters. I'm one of just 4 people on my team and the only analyst. Team B is more of a banking team so their setup is a little different (no phone duty as far as I can tell) and a little larger (5-7 people).
I've been on the team for almost a year now and while I can be kind of awkward sometimes, I generally try to engage when I can and I'd say I do good work.
I found out yesterday that my team would be having a lunch with Team B today. My MD is the one who organized it. I also found out that I'm the only one on both teams who isn't invited - and that includes the analyst on Team B, as well as all their recently promoted associates, etc. Don't think I was supposed to know that, as I kind of "accidentally" found it out, and my MD didn't disclose the specifics of the lunch until about 15 minutes ago when he wrangled up the rest of the team to go. And even then he didn't tell me it's with everyone on Team B and our team but me, just that they "were ditching me".
The lunch is supposed to be a "morale building" lunch, but I don't think they realize how shitty this is for my morale. I bust my ass - came into work feeling like shit today - to try to be an asset and a good analyst and this is how I'm rewarded.
I'm sure if asked, they'd say "we need someone on phones", but this feels like a personal thing. Like they just didn't want me there. To make matters even worse, we're not even all that busy right now and we're more of a deal oriented desk, so it's not like we have a position we could trade out of today anyways.
What am I supposed to do here? I'm actively considering quitting now - never felt so disrespected in a role in my life. I understand I'm an analyst but expect some semblance of at least the illusion of being included in team activities.