Just as the title states, I'm thinking about quitting the program soon.
A little about myself:
I graduated from a non-target university with a average GPA with a degree in Finance. Like a lot of fellow students, i didn't really know what i wanted to do with my life. By the time i learnt about Investment Banking, I was already a senior. It's bad enough that i didn't know what i want to do with my future, i didn't even know what my passion is. As a result, i took couple of corporate finance internship & co-ops just for the sake of "doing something" and because i wanted other to believe that I am a high achiever in whatever i do. Beginning of my senior year, a friend of mine had told me about the FLDP. He mentioned all the great perks about the program like network, corporate fast track, B-school etc etc...... so i thought to myself "Hey! I already got couple of corporate experiences, and i missed out on IB, so the next best thing is FLDP... why not!!" Long story short, went on couple of interviews, and secured a FLDP offer from a FT500 manufacturing company. This is a 3 year program with a nice relocation bonus.
Why i'm thinking about quitting:
I am currently one year into the program. I am currently located in a very small town in the middle of nowhere in the U.S (think midwest).The population of this place is about 15-20k. I am not an antisocial person, let me tell you, it is very hard to meet people outside of work - especially if you're a minority like me. This is also an internal problem. I had co-workers and shop floor employees giving me weird looks all the time. In fact, in the past 3 months, about 5 people quit the program. Of the 5, 3 of which are minorities. Keep in mind, my experience is primary in manufacturing, it could be different in other industries.
This is not a Finance leadership Development Program, in fact it should be re-named to a controller or accounting leadership development program. There is zero Finance here. Treasury department exist, but is very limited. Again, keep in mind this experience is mainly for manufacturing. You will need to master accounting in order to be a top performer. The expectation is that you will be a controller and nothing else when you graduate from the program. I didn't sign up for this.
Right now, i feel like i am stuck..... I just finished the first year of the program. However, i won't be rotating to my next location until June since i started in Feb - so i have 5 more months to go.
But i hate my job so much. I hate living in the middle of no where and not have any friends. I think the job i'm doing is worthless and boring. My accounting supervisor knows that i don't like accounting. She already told me that i am under performing and that I show no motivation at all. I feel like i will be "let go" if this continues. I have no motivation at work, i just barely do enough to finish my work, but will never go over and beyond. And right now, i don't really know what I can do next. I like investing and picking up stocks, I thought about portfolio management or even IB again. But i think it's too late for that.
Monkeys..... what should i do?.... I honestly just want to go into my work one day and be like F*** u all, and just leave. This program has nothing to offer for me. Location, people, future career progression.
Sorry for the long rant, but a lot has happened since the program started.