I've grinded hard and it's paid off.
I'm in my preferred bank, in my preferred group, and in my preferred role. My office politics are good and I have high upwards career trajectory in the future, all my seniors like me.
Still, I feel existential dread. Especially today - I've been feeling extremely lonely, anxious, and unmotivated. I feel like there is nothing really left for me other than just grinding my job. It was fun and exciting when I was grinding in lower tier banks, aiming for the next move. But now that I'm at where I want to be, I feel both bored and empty
Here are some things still on my bucket list;
- Travel more
- Save up for a really nice car
- Save up for a down payment on a next condo purchase
In the present, I still feel like I have no purpose. Things feel so repetitive and mundane. I sometimes struggle to get up out of bed some days. Have you guys ever felt the same way and how did you deal with it?