At where I want to be - Dealing with existential dread?

I've grinded hard and it's paid off.

I'm in my preferred bank, in my preferred group, and in my preferred role. My office politics are good and I have high upwards career trajectory in the future, all my seniors like me.

Still, I feel existential dread. Especially today - I've been feeling extremely lonely, anxious, and unmotivated. I feel like there is nothing really left for me other than just grinding my job. It was fun and exciting when I was grinding in lower tier banks, aiming for the next move. But now that I'm at where I want to be, I feel both bored and empty

Here are some things still on my bucket list; - Travel more - Save up for a really nice car - Save up for a down payment on a next condo purchase

In the present, I still feel like I have no purpose. Things feel so repetitive and mundane. I sometimes struggle to get up out of bed some days. Have you guys ever felt the same way and how did you deal with it?

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yeupp i feel ya mon, 100 doors all leading to the same place

edit: sorry for the cryptic response, don't feel like spelling out my actual thoughts on wso but you arent the only one with these thoughts (dont know if saying that you arent the only one with these thoughts is helpful or retarded because it should be obvious, decided to mention nonetheless because maybe it will be helpful) GoldenCinderblock had some interesting ideas in the recent dont want to live anymore thread as far as experiments to give a go

 

i also want to say that i celebrate you waking up, bored and empty may be a good in this moment - it is causing you to reevaluate

 
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