I'm lost and desperately need help
I know I will get over it, but I'm feeling depressed and just need to get it out.
My Ex just broke up with me and told me that she's seeing another guy, mainly because of my life choices.
Let me elaborate on my Background and last 4-year long relationship.
I'm the first one of my family to graduate HS and one of the few of my high school who went to a college. And probably the only one who managed to get into a target school since the founding of my school.
Also, I'm 21 years old and just received an FT offer for abroad in London (I'm from a small European country), however, my ex already began seeing the new guy during my internship because I only had time for her when I came back home. (She literally expected me to call her during work and responds to her texts within minutes)
Actually, she started to become cold towards me when I started studying at a "target" school, which was multiple hours away from home, instead of just working a regular job or choosing the local community college/state school. Furthermore, she told me I changed and was frustrated because I was focusing too much on my education/career instead of doing drugs with her stupid and unemployed friends.
She then told me that she's a disgrace for me because she only barely passed her GED (equivalent) and decided that she wants to drop out of the local college (because she thinks it's too difficult). She only did the GED and enrolled in college because I put a lot of pressure on her (which is true).
Also, she wanted to get married in the next one or two years and get children. And this is just not possible with my plans. Now she's fucking an 18-year-old (WTF?!) HS drop out who works as a construction worker.
I just wanted to get this out. I feel fucking lost, especially now since I'm going to move abroad and don't know anyone (besides other interns). Do you guys have any tips on how I should approach the future? I'm extremely grateful for all your advice!