I've been wondering the past few days about the direction of my mind/heart/soul....not to get into any of that emotional bullshit but it's been crazy just growing up and now being 20 years old working a fulltime internship with full time school.
With no doubt, I know I'm in a much better position than most of my friends in terms of education/work experience/ even financial means but what the hell is the point of my life?
I would argue that most of the people on this forum are proactive individuals, attempting to get advice, advance there careers and make some $$. But than what?
To be totally truthfull, I have no idea why the hell I'm writing this post since most of us don't care much about outside life (or atleast that's what I've noticed), I think we live in a bubble... the corp. fin/consulting/IB/douche bag persona kind of bubble. I'm not saying if your in the above field(s) that you're a douche but from I've experienced so far...,
this world is a bitch.
As I aimlessly enter some data onto an excel spreadsheet for work and get fucked by my boss as how he will claim 1 minute I'm doing an incredible job and the next take my into the conference room and tell me how I'm fucking up.
Crazy ass shit man.
What the hell are we all doing? Go to school....get a job....make some money and than die?
What is the point of your life? After you die, will people even remember you?
I'm quickly realizing how big of a bitch 'real life' is, even though I don't have the responsibilities of a 'grown man' with family and an actual job role, I'm feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders and feel like its hard to keep going.
What the fuck, I don't want to wear no gay ass tie everyday and take shit from higher ups... I'd much rather build my own business, wear shorts to work, and be a good person to others... but still dont have the experience to do so (in terms of building a business).
Have any of you ever been in this kind of slump? What the hells going on?
I feel like I just got in the face with brick full of reality. Is life really such a bitch or am I just trippin? Anyone feel the same?
I'm not trying to be sentimental/emotional or any of that shit. I'm simply asking, is this just a phase or this what real life is like...?