Gave it my All - Feel Betrayed
Third year coming to an end. I gave it my all. Fired or not I won’t be down on myself. Mistakes here and there but people know I worked really hard but I’ve started to worry.
Got pretty solid reviews first 6 months. But have struggled lately due to being constantly worked to the ground, having to work with first years that can’t do even simple tasks which make me look bad (and I have my other projects where I’m solo with VP) and lastly, have hard time connecting with seniors above me. As I got more worried, I asked for feedback and was told not ready for associate.
At the same time, my group is so understaffed that I am technically one on all my deals. I also was told I did really well on the live deal that I worked on which will be the only one to close. Recently one VP that I felt liked me at first and then has shunned me the past 6 months is making a real effort on giving me advice, what I should be doing at the next level, and getting staffed on a mini project just with him. He was the one who told me I’m not ready though.
Joined this new bank (i.e Cowen, HW) in a very specific group from a very small bank with no training, no name. Is he just being nice because bad news is coming?
