This job makes me hate myself…….

Analyst 1 here (early starter & interned with the team for 2 summers).

Has been pulling consecutive 90+ hours for the past 1.5 months.

I am absolutely trying my best, but I still struggle on some more technical asks, and also when people chase me, I start to lose my ground, and make mistakes like, updated the deck on the wrong version.

I am just so internally exhausted, and I have to work through Thanksgiving holiday… I feel like a dumbass and very unhappy with my life. But I do want to finish my analyst years.

How can I stop hating myself and be better at this job?

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  • Analyst 1 in IB-M&A
Nov 23, 2022 - 12:57pm

Me too literally here just to exit and not sure how I'll hold up until then

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  • Analyst 1 in IB - Gen
Nov 23, 2022 - 1:57pm

We've all been there man. I'm sure you've heard this from your second years but the first 6 months are truly the worst. I remember wanting to quit every day for my first 3 months. I'd literally be browsing jobs on linkedin and fantasizing about a normal 9-5 on my bathroom breaks which were the only times I had to myself.

You'll hit certain breakpoints over the course of your two years where you'll look back and be amazed by how far you've come. No need to be frustrated or disappointed with yourself- these things just take time and one day you'll wake up and, almost by magic, things will just click. This will happen sooner than you think. Hang in there!

  • Analyst 1 in IB - Cov
Nov 23, 2022 - 2:35pm

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