How did you deal with losing your parent(s)?
My mom is slowly dying and I can't do anything to help her. She is in the hospital and won't eat or drink and got combative with the nurses today and pulled out her IV (she has dementia). I can't understand life without her and over the past few years I have been her caregiver and best friend. I just don't understand life without her and have been breaking down crying in the shower and tried to cycle today indoors and just broke down and couldn't even pedal. I don't get this life sometimes and thought she had another 12 years in her at least. Now it could be days or weeks left. She wouldn't let the nurses feed her, but let me spoon feed her the past couple days until tonight when she refused all food basically. The option is to put a food tube in her or let her die basically and my family is opposed to a food tube. Secretly, I want her to have a food tube so I don't lose her, but both my family and doctor are recommending her to 'die with dignity', but this is literally killing me. I can't imagine life without my mom. I might permanently have to wear black everyday no joke to mourn for years. I don't know if I will ever get over this.
My sister says to imagine her soul and that she will be 'free' from this life in heaven and to imagine it that way, but I am selfish and want to hold her hand and hug her for a few more years, but don't know how long she will last.