Depressed about heading back to the Office
Yeah, I get it. The learning is better and more important for someone junior like myself. But I'm really enjoying my time at home right now. Maybe things are slower than usual across the board but even on busy days it's not that bad. I can still make time to cook healthy meals I like or do whatever. Simple things even like laundry are Godsend. Quick gym pump at 2pm? Done. Again, this may be because I'm in a group that emphasizes WLB relative to you all on here.
But now with things heading back to the office, I can't help but feel actual dread. Like I'll be trapped. Chained to my desk sitting in uncomfortable clothes. Forced to eat shitty lunches and dinners from outside. I'm also very apprehensive about shitting in the public toilets (not trying to even be funny, seriously).
It seems insane but this honestly making me reconsider IB even though I surprisingly don't mind the work or hours at all. Honestly. It feels silly to throw away my future especially when I'm actually okay with the work and can see myself grinding it out, but I genuinely do not want to have to go into an office.
Maybe it's something psychological too for me. Like having to dress all up and go sit at a desk and pretend to look busy. Whereas I'm here at home now sitting in sweats just doing some mindless tasks listening to a podcast on full blast.
Fine call me a pussy or that this generation is weak or whatever but is it so bad that I like this current comfort? I'm not lazy in the sense that I don't want to do work. But why the hell do I have to go through old materials and models all day long in the office when I have nothing going on. Maybe this means I'm not as super passionate about the industry but c'mon. I guess this means corporate life isn't for me or something. I'd like to know how you all feel and are navigating the situation? Maybe you all have a lot of friends in your office and it's seen as a fun part of your day?