Feeling Lost - Experience but no GPA
Sorry for the throw-away account, it will become clear as to why...
I'm a prospective monkey, currently at a non-target. I've been struggling with some personal shit and my GPA has likely gone down the toilet. It was a 2.8/4.0 and has likely dipped as of these exams.
I applied to transfer to a target which has strong alumni + on-campus recruitment - however they take this current semester into consideration. As I currently stand, I only just scrape in with the entry requirements. In which case, fresh start at a good target rendering this thread moot...
However, this semester has been horrendous and I feel like I will just miss out on the opportunity to transfer to the target with a clean slate. The kicker is that I will only just miss out (where no exceptions are made)..
The reality of my lack of drive / personal shit bogging me down is finally dawning on me and I feel the bold aspirations of IB creeping away.
If I don't get accepted into the target, I am stuck at a sub-par institution with a shitty GPA. I have decent experience (regional boutique corp advisory shop) and a few due diligence engagements - but nothing BB / EB. I've accumulated enough debt and am starting to feel like I'm wasting my time.
With respects to debt and GPA, it seems too late to save. It sounds fucking moronic, but I've been so depressed and somewhat suicidal over this. Ever since leaving school I've wanted to work towards IB and it's just dawning on me that it may be too late. I don't know what else I would do (say if I were to drop out), nothing else interests me - nothing outside of 'making it' so to speak...
I've probably rambled heaps, any cold truths / differing perspectives would be greatly appreciated.