It has been 4 years since I started my job in BB IBD in Asia. I am now at a PE fund but I am not very happy with my life.
Life has been very stressful for me for the last few years. I have been constantly under significant pressure with last minute tasks, countless all nighters and always work on tasks with minimal guidance but endless comments.
I thought going to a PE fund would change my life but it didn't. Maybe it is because I am "lucky" but I have lost my hope moving to another shop. I interned at another BB and this is my third IB/PE experiences. My experiences have only gone worse such as more urgent weekend internal deliverables, very early morning video calls, etc.
I feel like the stress is hurting my life so much. i am constantly feeling pressured, worrying my phone would beep on weekends, worrying i would receive emails from seniors when I go grab my takeaway food or groceries. My parents sent me a blood pressure monitor and in the last few months the reading has gone so bad that my GP friend suggested me to see a cardiologist.
I don't know if it is time for me to leave the "successful track". IB was my goal in life because the money is great there. Corporate jobs are paid way less in Asia vs US/Europe while IB pay is global across regions. It is difficult to move to the "less successful but still successful" tracks such as FLDP. Banking exits are more niche here and it is more like PE/bust unless you covered sexy stuff such as TMT / healthcare / fintech.
I tried applying fresh graduate FLDP or very junior corporate lateral hire for a year (<1-2 years experiences) but I don't have any luck so far. Basically if I leave my current path, my classmates who went to trainee programs would be much more successful than me in 2-3 years time.
I am not sure if I should adjust my mentality and adapt to a mediocre career path. I am reluctant to accept it but I am debating inside if I will be happier a few years down the road. I thought about starting non-tech small businesses (such as bakery / IB interview workshop / investing coach / etc.) or go back to school and do a professional degree in law/engineering/medicine/etc. This may not be a bad idea but I feel like I am setting myself a few years back vs my peers who did it at 22.
Understand this may be a very long whine, thanks so much and appreciate all bros reading till here!