Scared of mediocrity
Does anyone else have an existential fear of mediocrity, that your life will ultimately amount to nothing despite being complimented since childhood of your promise and potential? For reference, my parents grew up dirt poor in a third-world country and made it to perhaps the top 5% (?) in this country; so I grew in a fairly privileged environment, but nothing out of the ordinary. While we could afford some basic luxuries, there was always much to be desired. I've always felt a subliminal duty to achieve "more" than my parents to fulfill their dreams; I excelled in public schools and recently graduated from a T10, and since childhood I've had ambitions of becoming someone great: a respected scientist, a top politician or federal judge, respected novelist, singer/actress/model, even marrying into a wealthy/aristocratic family. And investment banking, being so exclusive, was always at the fore of that path. Now that I'm in IB, however, I feel like I'm wasting away my life. Realistically, the most I can achieve is an MD or C-Suite position, but nothing close to Wikipedia-biography worthy. I don't think I'm physically incapable of performing any of the careers I listed; I'm attractive, have a high IQ, sociable, enjoy decent pedigree, etc., but I just honestly don't know where to find opportunities to do something greater--or whether those opportunities even exist--or if I'm just neurotic and being unreasonable. Any advice is appreciated. Please be as harsh as possible.