Have lost trust of PMs
Hey all -
Senior analyst here at a large lean SM. For a variety of reasons (I don't need to litigate here what's fair or not, but can expand as needed), I am of the view that I have lost the trust of my PMs. (I say plural because there are two people who kind of run the firm, though one of them is "the" SM.)
This is meant both in terms of getting risk on (which is where it started) even when that risk consistently has outperformed, and now, more recently, in terms of pointed and specific negative feedback over real or perceived errors in my coverage (ranging from disputes over what I did or did not include in a model to risks that I was not aware of or rumors that I had not heard on names we own). I admit that some of these were indeed my fault, and there were things I could and should have improved.
But it feels to me that I've lost their trust and there's really no apparent road back from here. I'm not quite sure what the next steps are.
For any of you who have been here, what do you recommend? What are my options?