LPT: Don't neglect your kids

Illiterate parents. Drug addicted brother. 

Only remotely smart fucker out of my family. But despite this, ridiculed and emotionally abused by my family to think I was the problem since a teenager. Still vividly remember crying every weekend after my mom would side with my drug addicted brother and give him money to feed his addiction. Despite me pleading with her so many times to not give him money. All of this at age 12. 

I fucking KNEW I was right in so many ways but my family never let my gut intuition develop and just tossed it aside as me being a problem child with anger issues. 

Anyways, it has irreversibly fucked with my self-esteem, physical health, mental health, and other facets of my identity beyond belief or repair.

I AM what makes this country great. I am the American Dream. But thanks to my family and early development, I don't believe it one ounce and will end up getting fired from my job soon. The thoughts win.