Why can’t I let myself be happy

Just signed with BB for IBSA last week. Idk what I expected but I don’t really feel much.

Worked my ass off to get in despite being non-target, In season Athlete, first-gen, among other things. But haven’t had the “Pursuit of Happyness” moment that I thought would happen or that it would somehow change me as a person.

Maybe everyone was right. It’s really just a job or even worse just an internship.

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Struck me the same. Landed a dream role at an EB but never felt more happy than actually getting the offer call. I realized part of this is that I learned there is no end to this but only the continuation of uncertainty, grind, luck, etc. that in life. Shit doesn't end but only gets worse. Especially, as an international student, I learned that potentially are more obstacles that I can prepare and predict.

 
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Here's some advice I wish I could internalize myself throughout my career - it quite literally is only a job or an internship. Your career, role, title, etc. should not define you nor should you rely on it to create a sense of accomplishment or self worth. That needs to come from yourself - the goals you set, the things you achieve, what matters to you as a person. Congratulations, BTW,  it's a great opportunity and you should absolutely use it to understand if that's the next step for you or not. 

 

Know exactly what you mean. Thing is really it's not about it being the recruiting, that's likely just a goal or something to work towards, and the bit that you relished and are now missing.

That's a good thing cause most people don't have that level of drive, it's just about channeling it. Try find other goals to work towards, passions to chase etc, things to achieve. That's how I've always thought about it & continue to do so

 

You are not supposed to FEEL a crazy amount of “happiness”, life just doesn’t work like that. We confuse happiness with “feeling something”, but even for the moments that are supposed to be the “happiest moments of our life” (your kid is born, u got married, etc.) eventually the dopamine fades over time and life returns to its normal state.

It is all about your mentality. If you keep looking for “happiness” in things or accomplishments, you will never find it. Change your mentality. Don’t expect to buy a Rolex and feel something crazy, but if you view the Rolex as a representation of years of hard work, you can feel “satisfied”. Same thing with this job. Congratulate yourself, realize getting to this point literally took your whole life since u were like 12. Cook a good meal, put music on, and just say to yourself “life is good man”. Go out with friends, say yes to any adventure or trip or interesting experience you have the opportunity to do, and just enjoy the journey.

I promise it’s all about mentality. When you are grinding say to yourself “man i love the grind” and when you are “relaxing” or travelling or whatever we consider leisure, enjoy the ride.

It’s literally all about mentality. Many people learn that as we get older, sole never do.

 

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