Feeling undervalued and sad
This is a bit of vent. If there is one place where I can assume people may feel the same way and understand, it is on WSO.
So I have been working at a very exclusive, top investment research company for 2 and a half years. The work is incredibly intense and I work really hard.
But I am constantly undervalued and overlooked. I am incredibly underpaid. My total comp is 75% below the industry average. The reason for working here is that the firm is an incredible brand name. When cold emailing for jobs the firm’s name is fantastic for opening doors.
The issue is that I am not "in" with the company.
The company is very clique. Everyone else knows each other very personally from way back.
I am an outsider and boy do I feel it.
Despite being a very senior member of the team and producing great work (according to the )I am not trusted with big client meetings. They are given to others within the company who have the same seniority as me. I also don’t have the same access to the CEO.
Despite producing the best work in the company everyone seems to gush over everyone else’s work and I feel jealous over it.
I hate myself for taking it personally but I feel really sad.
I am still motivated to work hard because I am doing it for myself and for my future. is to move over into a top global macro use my work to nurture an edge. Something I can take with me to the and crush it from day one.
I have no loyalty to this firm. I fantasise about the day when I can tell the company to fuck off.
Does anyone else feel this way?
Update: Thank you so much everyone for the advice, I really appreciate it.