Joined New Firm; Complete Non-Cultural Fit > Let Go in 6 Months
Long-time lurker since back in the Analyst days (Analyst > Asso > Sr Asso > VP); I'm going to keep this as anonymous as possible but still hoping to get some opinions from the fine folks of WSO as I've seen a handful of these types of posts that had some absolutely phenomenal feedback.
Fairly typical background: Great undergrad, good IB program, a couple well-known MM PE platforms. I made a massive jump to a growing small PE firm in the hopes of a lifestyle change / path to never having to find another job again. Day 1, I knew I made a mistake.
Every aspect of the culture was a complete nightmare - I was always under the impression that money / prestige meant more than culture...but boy was I 100% wrong. The people, the attitude, the in-office culture, the deathly quiet workdays, no interactions amongst groups, clicky individual co-workers, stingy practices, hostile environments, clock-in / clock-out mentality paired with folks who would tell their supervisor even if a senior member of the team ducked out, "tattle-tales" for political points, and no managerial efforts to be seen for miles... made this the worst firm I've ever been a part of. Truly, truly terrible.
However, through it all, I figured I'd try and tough it out a few years and figure it out later. Well...turns out I wasn't the only one who noticed the non-cultural fit. I was just blindsided that the role wasn't working out, there were too many gaps in expectations, and that the easiest avenue was to call a mulligan and part ways. Cut losses early and move on.
I quit a great job previously, uprooted my life & family, expected the promised-land, and now in and under a year, have been let go for seemingly "cultural fit" issues that were just too apparent. I've been in this field for going on 9 years, and this has never happened....and I'm at a loss for words. Deeply diving into a pit of despair that I don't know how to curb. Girlfriend hasn't been able to get me off the couch in 48 hours and was the one who suggested I reach out to someone for advice. Y'all are hopefully that someone.
This feels like the end to everything I worked so hard for. I see no logical way to spin this story and not be red flagged. Is this it for me? Any suggestions on what to do? Firms don't hire in the holiday months - it's too hard to schedule interviews, and the most happens in the new year. I don't have that luxury.
Were there things I should have done differently? Absolutely. But end of the day, my mentors told me this - I knew it - in the long run this spot was not going to work out no matter how badly I wanted it to. The cultural gaps were just too large.
I feel sick to my stomach. Barely getting by the past week or so. Feels like a GD dreamlike state. How do I recover from this? Can I?
Any help is good help here.