Losing the drive
Hi all --
I've seen some similar posts on this topic over the past few months, but figured I'd throw my own hat into the ring. Lately I've been really losing interest in my work and having a difficult time motivating myself to do anything more than just focusing on the bare minimum I can do (i.e., completing tasks at a relatively decent rate and relatively good quality, but not really striving to go above and beyond) and not looking forward to work at all. Frankly I show up to work late every day because I can't bring myself to get out of bed and go into the office.
After doing an analyst stint at a BB and now at a sweaty UMM, I'm really starting to feel like I'm not longer the hard worker I used to be. I can't tell what is causing this (bad culture, burnout from COVID, not taking a longer break before PE, decreased interest in the career path, lifestyle / values change), but it has been causing a lot of doubt about my future and my overall career (i.e., should I leave finance all together). Has anyone else felt this way? I've started going to therapy as I had some low points during the past year starting my PE gig, and am having a difficult time motivating myself to stay for the first year bonus (another 3 months or so). While I recognize the culture of my firm is below average, I'm worried just lateraling to another PE firm will just lead to the same feelings once I hit the 6 month mark. My reviews so far (formal and informal) have been solid so I know I can do the job, just losing the drive to want to keep at it. I've had some significant life events come up this year (loss of a friend, serious health issues, family weddings) that may have accelerated or changed my outlook on what I want out of my life as well.
I was always a hard worker and interested in finance and data analysis in college, but now the idea of building a model or scanning aseems daunting and a ton of work. While I always valued earning high compensation, it no longer is enough for me and I've lost my 'why'. I'm thinking I may need to take some extended time off before figuring out my next step, but would be interested in hearing if anyone else has come to this point and how they handled it.