I have thus far in the last 2 jobs been placed with bosses/teammates who hated me.
In less than 3 months, I was sat down with HR. In less than 6 months, I was given an improvement plan. My previous roles have always given me better than average ratings, and these ratings have come from different bosses in different departments who didn't even see eye to eye. In fact, one of my previous bosses begged me to stay in his team. This boss who tried to kick me out has never talked to me, only sends me emails on work and all my mistakes via email (which I later realise was used to show that I wasn't performing) and which I regretted not replying her in email because some of the 'mistakes' she pointed out were not mine but hers. The improvement plan was basically to make zero mistakes, which is laughable because she does at least 40% of the mistakes she accuses me of. I also later found out she went around asking different teams for any of the mistakes I've done, and reports them to the MD. The MD talked about it during my performance review and I was angry because long story short, the other team had a conflicting interest within their own team and does it mean I have done something wrong if I follow the latest instructions from that team when the person who complaint about me to the boss gave the first instruction? I actually went to someone else who attended the meeting and asked her if there was indeed a conflict of instructions, and she said yes. Unfortunately, she won't stand up for me in front of the boss or the MD, which is understandable, but shows that I wasn't wrong. The only wrong I did in this situation is because I finished my work fast and was the first to reply. I'll admit that I have made mistakes, but so has she (and often too).
There was also many other instances which she used against me. I printed out every email that would back me up and went to HR, but no prize for guessing whose side HR stood by and I was given a couple of months to look for something else. I suspect she needed to get rid of my headcount and/or blame the mistakes on me because her project was failing. She left shortly after herself, anyway.
I rushed into a new role because I needed to get something else, which I regretted tremendously. When I was interviewing for this position, I had no prior experience and was upfront about it during my interview. They hired me as an analyst level 1 with a downgrade in payment (even compared to when the last associate was hired 3 years ago with no job experience, internships included!)
The first day of the job, I found out that the associate in that team (she is 3 levels above me) is leaving unexpectedly. Prior to that, another associate director (4 levels above me) was let go due to headcount issues. Basically, as an analyst level 1 with zero experience, I suddenly found 90% of the work from both these associate and associate director pushed to me. During the handover process, the associate did not hand her work over properly, and I found out that there were a lot of things that were missing or that she actually taught me wrongly. I worked extremely long hours (working past midnight every day and up till 5am occasionally, coming back on weekends) to try and bridge the gap but obviously, after less than 3 months, I am still not an expert in this. I do check my work (come in at 7am easily to check them a second round!), but sometimes, I don't even know what to check for. I believe this will improve with time.
Both my manager and supervisor have been extremely nasty to me about this. I was/am screamed at, scolded and often told that I am slow and that previously, the associate and associate director could do these work faster which I found very unfair.
1. I was upfront about having no experience prior to joining, trust me when I say I did not even exaggerate a notch
2. Even when the previous associate was hired with no experience (and at a higher pay), she had the backup of the associate director who *had* experience
3. I have been in this team with less number of months then anyone else's number of years and they are expecting me to be an expert with the legal docs and modeling (this is a structured product team, and the modeling and legal work is very different compared to what I was previously familiar with. It is also a lot harder to find information on how to do my work in any of these sites, compared to say... M&A modeling as there are more resources for the latter out there)
4. They are paying me below benchmark level compared to the associate who was hired 3 years ago (even after discounting for inflation) but expecting me to do x2 people's work
I am constantly being micromanaged that I will be questioned even when I open a file. I am constantly being scolded to read the legal documents and to understand the modeling expect, which I am trying to. When I ask questions, people get frustrated and push me to other people. I did something wrongly due to being taught wrongly from the associate who left (she specifically gave me wrong instructions), and my boss was unhappy. He made me recount the step to step mistakes I did in front of everyone in the department (and the surrounding departments) while screaming at me in the top of his lungs. I couldn't take it after days and weeks of humiliation that I stupidly, lost my temper and argued back today :(
The other supervisor seems to have it against me as well. Forget not willing to teach me, she is now criticising my personal life as well. For example, I have this habit of touching my face when I am thinking, and she has a complaint about it to everyone else for - get this - touching my face, that a kind associate from another team actually came to tell me not to do it in front of her because it pisses her off. She sits next to me, it's a habitual tick, sometimes I don't even notice myself doing it. I don't actually do it in meetings or during more formal occasions. This is just an example, there are many more. Another one would be her criticising that I take away food from 'shops that have no quality and [she] refuses to eat it'. Uhh.. okay, I'll eat it myself then? Wasn't it even bought for her? She is extremely careless, and whenever I do smaller mistakes, I get screamed at. Whereas when she does any mistakes, I will help her change them or tell her nicely.
I am tired of this cycle. What can I do to get out of this, or how do I cope? Should I stay or start looking for something else? I don't want to look like a job hopper because I stayed in job 1 for a year and am only in my 3rd month in job 2. So far, I am actually beginning to enjoy the complexity of the product I'm doing and actually won't mind staying in this industry and sector. But if I stay, how long should I stay for and how do I ensure that I survive in such a team?
TLDR: Been unlucky in 2 jobs so far. How do you survive with a team that's out to get you?
p.s: Sorry for the grammar errors, this was written in frustration at an extremely quick speed at 1.30am on a Friday night. I am still trying to fix my model and haven't had dinner. A very big thank you to anyone who has read all that!