Every Second Counts

Disclaimer: This is not a stupid self help post, just something I thought people should know. I am quite shit at helping others personally in general so don't expect much or in fact anything.

What I have to say

It goes like this, I have changed jobs recently and have had less hours and stress in general, the world seemed a little more friendly in general. Recently I have been having severe headaches and general aches, so I go to see a GP. Goes through usual life shit, Drink too much - Check, No Sleep- Check, Poor Diet - Check (Apparently Foie Gras, wine and cheese is not healthy!).

Anyways, he couldn't figure it out so I am sent to a hospital for a series of test etc.
Results came back a few days ago. Remember I am in my twenties, average build, not over/underweight, so I don't fall into a high risk bracket. Anyways, I have about 6 months left, turns out I am fucked inside (not going to go into specifics).

My point is, I am not even thirty and I am going to die alone in my apartment, and have sweet fuck all to really show for it bar cars, motorcycles etc. Am I going to quit my job? - No, Am I going to change anything - No.

BUT, I do just want to say to all the guys going in to this game, don't lose track of whatever goals you had before you became obsessed with greed and work in general.

I was born with a lust for greed so I was fucked from the get go but there is more to life I am told.
And before the usual shithead start jumping up and down, I DON'T want sympathy, pity or anything like that, I am going to burn out in my own way. And no you can't have my car.

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Apr 5, 2017

Out of curiosity, why won't you quit your job? why won't you change anything?

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Apr 5, 2017

To quit my job would suggest that whatever is going to finish me off has won and I will be damned if accepting defeat is one of my last acts. Burn out rather than fade away and all that.

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Apr 7, 2017
TripleDown:

To quit my job would suggest that whatever is going to finish me off has won and I will be damned if accepting defeat is one of my last acts. Burn out rather than fade away and all that.

If only I could have such balls. Honor-bound, yet futile.

OP, remember, every second counts. If the doc's pretty much guaranteed that you only have six months more or less left, you ought to spend that time with friends and family, and stay on the job too - albeit on a significantly less strenuous scale. Don't rot those last moments - seize the day. If you make it, well at least you'll have a bunch of experiences and a cool story to tell. There are stories of guys who've used a combination of prayer, relationships, support groups and memories to live out their last days in joy, only to survive in full fighting spirit beating all doctor's expectations.

I can relate somewhat. I've this chronic condition, which because it was diagnosed quite late, cut my lifespan by at least 10-20 years. But I can say I've accomplished a lot more already in my past twenty-something years, rather than a bunch of no-name average Joes. And I haven't stopped yet - I plan to do a lot more in the coming years too! My brother was also diagnosed with a severe kidney condition when he was six. The doctors told my parents that he would only have a year or so left before his kidney failed and he would need to use a dialysis system. Fast forward 20 years and he's kicking ass developing new drugs for cancer (Yeah I suck compared to him, and it always comes up in family get-togethers that I'm a money grubbing asshole).

Point is, pray (if you're a believer), find emotional support and motivate yourself to try to prove the doctors wrong!

GoldenCinderblock: "I keep spending all my money on exotic fish so my armor sucks. Is it possible to romance multiple females? I got with the blue chick so far but I am also interested in the electronic chick and the face mask chick."

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Apr 7, 2017

To play devil's advocate - would it not be defeat of another kind for you to stay set in your ways despite the clear signs that they have been to your detriment?

It seems to me a Pyrrhic victory if your response to mortality is to double down on the lifestyle that you seem to be regretting.

"I was born with a lust for greed so I was fucked from the get go but there is more to life I am told."

Seems as though it's not the illness that's defeating you, but this mentality. Why not go find out for yourself, rather than being told?

EDIT:

In my estimation, the best thing a friend can do for another friend is give them an unvarnished opinion about them. Something true, something that is real even after all the niceties are stripped away. With that said, I hope you realize that I say the following in the spirit of friendship and not to kick you while you're down.

You need to stop feeling sorry for yourself and take your own advice. If every second counts, stop wasting the ones you have left in what will ultimately be a pointless attempt to spit in death's face. If you're fucked, then embrace that fact and wring some last drops out of life. Nobody will give two shits about your tenacity once you're in the dirt, so find something that you give a shit about and love it till time's up. Don't be pathetic and stay the course, like some kind of beat up draft animal on the way to the glue factory.

And if you're destined not to overcome this, then, may you be half an hour in heaven before the devil knows you're dead.

Apr 5, 2017

OP, would recommend traveling and doing everything you've ever wanted to. Don't rot away in an office...

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Apr 5, 2017

All I ever wanted to do is make money! So that is what I will do and leave it to some big company to spend when I kick the bucket.

Apr 9, 2017

Mad respect for you doing exactly what you want to the end.

Apr 7, 2017

Dude, are you for real?

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Apr 5, 2017

Yes, quite real

Apr 7, 2017

Well you've got our respect.

Not that you need it; not that you care.

When the time comes , if you've got the respect of your fellow man then that's all that matters.

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Apr 7, 2017

Had you been seeing a doctor once a year before hand? Just curious

Apr 7, 2017

Get a second opinion. Can I ask, are you afraid of death?

Apr 7, 2017

You sound like an older version of me. (Exclude the drinking because I'm 17)

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Apr 5, 2017

@Frank Quattrone" Cheers for the motivating comment. I am sorry to hear of your condition, I have also heard of people beating the doc's diagnosis, who knows. I have never really done anything out of the ordinary like create new drugs or such, however my motivation stays so long as money is to be made, it seems to be one of the few things that doesn't disappear when you wake up (Unless the occasional war breaks out or a central banker gets board)

@Fugue I appreciate honesty and lack of bullshit so your post comes as a refreshment this week. As for battling on being accepting defeat, let me put it to you this way, making money is the best feeling in the world for me (yes I know MIT researchers said coke can give the same feeling), so I know what I am and what I like in the world. I don't want honor or to even be remembered, fuck it, some may even rejoice when they get the news at some stage but fuck 'em. I intend to do exactly what I like doing until I drop. People were not thinking about me for years before I came into this world and I want it to me the same afterwards. At least if I knew I was going to be turned into glue, I would know that I would serve some useful purpose, other than being turned to ash and fucked into the sea. Re: Hell and all that, I suspect he knows I am on my way.

@EagleFA Only when absolutely necessary

@oulixeus Already have, same verdict more or less. No I'm not, I have dealt with my fair share of shit and caused enough of it myself so whatever death may bring let it happen.

@oulixeus Your a fucking idiot, you are 17, the whole point of my original post was for people with attitudes like yours to read it. You are coming to what could be the best years of your life, don't wait around for things to happen, get out there, have fun, get laid and all the other crazy shit people in the teens are supposed to do

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Apr 7, 2017

"The best years of my life" - in what way? That "crazy shit" gets boring after some time.

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Apr 8, 2017

Stop, kid. Last thing this guy's wants to deal with is your 17 y/o 's life views. Take his advice, go enjoy the next few years, and say thanks. Do it however you enjoy yourself.

Apr 7, 2017

"A foolish consistency is the hobgoblin of little minds"

I'm sad to hear about your situation. If I were you there is no chance I would spend the remaining days in an office. Enjoy the time you have left

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Apr 8, 2017

I quit my engineering job awhile back after realizing how miserable I felt, and never felt happier. I spent the month soul searching and decided to shoot for the moon and go into banking. I can understand the illnesses and conditions, but I am sorry to hear about the condition you are in. I made a point to myself to better care for my health, and I will keep going down this path even if I die in the process, to see how far I can go.

EDIT - Was drunk when I wrote this too. Talk about a bad night.

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Apr 5, 2017

@l0l" You know what, I gave you my two cents, take from it what you will.

@Going Concern I find an idle mind can be a dangerous one, hence I quite enjoy working (the results of working should I say, passing out in the office sucks)

Darkasing_619 Soul searching, fuck that, imo, trading death for banking is a pretty stupid trade whether I'm drunk or not. So long as you make enough (how ever you define "enough") in a manner that is not illegal, who cares.

Apr 8, 2017

Any book recommendations?

Absolute truths don't exist... celebrated opinions do.

Apr 5, 2017

"Hell Riders" is an excellent read if you are really interested. In fact here is a link. https://www.amazon.co.uk/Hell-Riders-Truth-Charge-...

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Apr 8, 2017

Legend.

Any chance we might find out who you really are in the event of your passing? I'd be interested in reading up on your bio. Gotta watch out for early warning signs.

Absolute truths don't exist... celebrated opinions do.

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Apr 9, 2017

Hey man, I know you're going to die, but based on your posts you are pretty fucking dumb, and still remain so. Best of luck with how you choose to spend the rest of your life though.

"To quit my job would suggest that whatever is going to finish me off has won and I will be damned if accepting defeat is one of my last acts. Burn out rather than fade away and all that."

Yes, because when you're on your deathbed, you'll be cheering "fuck yes, I defeated my job." while fading away.

Honestly, it's hard to even fathom how someone can even get so attached to this forum to the point that he'd post here after finding out that he has only 6 months of life remaining. It takes some serious loner, with absolutely no close friends or family relatives to do this.

P.S. fuck this fake thread.

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Apr 7, 2017

You can't blame finance brahs for being sceptical.

Apr 9, 2017

So if you would have a second chance, what would you do differently?

You killed the Greece spread goes up, spread goes down, from Wall Street they all play like a freak, Goldman Sachs 'o beat.

Apr 5, 2017

@vik2000 Your post is interesting, for a number of reasons. First, I post in this forum when I'm waiting for something/someone or when at a loose end for a while. I also like that I am able to give a little back to a world I took so much from. Seems to make me feel a little better. Second, when I am on my deathbed, I suspect I won't have my job on my mind but as I have stressed I use it as a distraction. As regards my social circles, you are correct, I am a bit of a loner outside of work, and I have no family as such, and I am not going to be the source of misery and gloom in the life of my few friends.

@Arti I would focus more on building stronger social circles and perhaps try to develop a serious relationship. And buy a nice dog.

Apr 9, 2017

please give me your appartement please im poor help me

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Apr 10, 2017

Why do think you are the way you are? What events have happened in your life to shape your personality?

"When you stop striving for perfection, you might as well be dead."

Apr 11, 2017

This is just fake stop feeding into it. None with six months to live even goes on WSO.

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Apr 15, 2017

That's the only way to spend it. Ask someone with 1,000+ bananas. Life is fleeting, but WSO shitposts are archived forever, right, @AndyLouis?

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