Two months off work to travel then started my new job at a BB IB. It's been a good three months but I still find it hard to feel motivated to come into work. I'm not sure if I'm just a little burnt out as I've been working really long hours and working hard in general. It's kinda affecting the quality of my work.
There're times when I think that my work means nothing to the greater good of the society. I'm not helping anyone. I'm helping some guys get rich by bumping up their exit multiples and trying to nail down that NPV at 15%. I love my work and I'm learning a lot. I'm just feeling a bit lost atm thinking where I wanna place myself in the world.
I want to stay in finance at least for now. I wanna make money so that I have a roof over my head. I am thinking about trying to break into PE. Maybe it's just part of being in IB where you feel just insignificant sometimes.
I just wanna know how I can pick myself up. I know a lot of people feel miserable in IBD but they just want to do well. I'm one of them. But it sucks a lot sometimes because you feel like you could be doing more as a member of the society, cliche af I know.