I just want to quit and go live in the wild...
Title says it all... Starting this week, something just started feeling "not right".
Sure I'm making lots of money for a 20 something year old. Sure the work is unique and I'm learning a lot that I wouldn't be able to learn elsewhere. Heck I even got a big fat bonus and got told that I'm being fast-tracked for a promotion so why shouldn't I be happy?
I just realized that I REALLY DON'T CARE ABOUT MONEY OR TITLE. I feel like everyone else in the world is in this weird bubble trying to maximize their TC and title as much as possible in the shortest amount of time. Something about this "system" just feels obscene.
I watched 2 JRE episodes about 2 dudes who just lived in the wild for months. And I immediately thought, "I've got to do that". It just felt like my true calling. I just want to drop everything and live like a hunter gatherer for a while. Then I want to go get myself a PhD in econ/OR and live the life of a true researcher. I want to live in a tiny shack somewhere and focus all my time and energy researching things I'm interested in. If I feel like I've discovered enough knowledge, I want to build an organization (business, non-profit, or whatever) from scratch before I die.
I feel like all 3 of these are connected by the theme of "seeking the truth". By living in the wild, I would be discovering truths about myself, my physical and mental limits, and the nature. By being an academic, I would be spending all my time discovering the nature of this world. By being an entrepreneur, I would be discovering the fundamentals of what makes human society go around.
If I don't try all 3 before I die, I'm afraid I'll regret my entire life. I wouldn't care if I became a multi-millionaire if that wealth just came from being "part of the system".
Anyone else feel this way?