I'm currently a rising junior (majoring in finance) at a target business school. A lot of people get placed in IB especially. The school also has an econ major that I'm considering, but it's outside of the business school and not as prestigious. Recruiters mostly focus on the business school, but the university has a lot of prestige overall so the name is worth a lot, especially in the area.
I'm currently a finance major and I originally wanted to go into IB on Wall Street and later PE, but I'm not sure if I'm on the right track anymore.
I underwent some personal issues that were reported on the news and it took a huge toll on me. The depression I experienced afterwards made my grades drop and I currently have a 3.0 GPA. I also missed a lot of classes during this time so I'm very behind in terms of the course requirements.
I'm considering switching into the College to be an econ major because though I like finance, econ has always been my best subject. I got awards for it in high school and it's currently my minor. I've gotten an A in every econ class I've taken here so far so I think that I could at least salvage a 3.5 by graduation if I switched. I'm thinking that switching would position me to do an MBA or grad degree instead and try again in the future. Still, there's no guarantees that I'll get into a good program or be able to afford it, so I do need to hedge my bets and be sure that I could make it with a bachelor's alone.
There are two ways to look at this...on one hand, perhaps the stigma around mental illness will prevent me from getting onto Wall Street anyway, because companies can just Google me and see that depression has been a problem. In that case, I should just throw in the towel, pivot into liberal arts, and spend the rest of college building a portfolio of research in hopes of propelling myself into academia. Personal trauma is actually a bonus when it comes to the admissions committees, so I've got about two years to turn my sob story into a literary masterpiece.
On the other hand, I could say this is my dream and I've already spent enough time suffering, so it's time for me to stop giving a rat's ass about whatever's wrong with me, show up to each and every networking event, and make those bastards see what's right. Perhaps changing industries would be easier or even more sensible, but why should I let anyone slap my hand and tell me I don't deserve the biggest slice of pie? Even if I never have it, I want it to be because I failed after doing everything I could, not because the starting gun shot me in the leg and I never got up.
Realistically, my transcript is trash, I'm behind in my classes, and my freshman year misfortunes are all over the internet forever. Also, I'm a woman, and I'm half black, but that's pretty low on my list of concerns at this point in the game so I'm hoping others will feel the same. I can really only work from this moment. I'm probably screwed, but I guess I want to find out for certain.
My question...how do I succeed from here?