Fucked up my interview and feel like crying

Do you do mocks I feel like talking t someone is a bit different that’s the only advice I can really offer cause seems like you know your stuff if you get this far, just a matter of practice at this point

This is totally fixable. Just get out there, date and have friends who aren't exactly like you. Go to Toastmasters or something like that if you can't do it organically through leadership positions.

im someone with aspergers and i can relate to how you feel when you put in lot of work just to end up freezing during interviews. ik this sounds cliche but don't think that whatever the next interview you have will be the last interview, this builds up pressure and causes you to overthink and freeze. Do more mocks and see where you are struggling. 

cry it out and then lock in, no ones coming to save you

Sorry you are going through this OP, just wanted to say don't let this make you think you are worth any less. I am excellent at interviews and lying through my teeth, which is how I got my job, but I am fucking awful at it and have no idea what I'm doing every day. I'm pretty sure nobody at work can pick up how much I despise this job. On the flip side, I had friends from undergrad who were brilliant and had an amazing work ethic, but struggled so hard during recruiting just because they got nervous in interviews or weren't the smoothest talkers. They're all crushing it in the roles they do have and are consistently ranked top of their class. 

I've found that interviews are a terrible way of screening for good employees; there are so many false positives in my company and others. There were people who were straight up sociopaths, interviewed and spoke really well, but ended up getting let go for fraud or something as dumb as using the corporate card for ridiculous personal expenses, getting caught having affairs with married employees, etc. I literally go to my friend from undergrad for help with my job all the time. He could easily do it better than me, even though he works for a smaller, less "prestigious" company because he didn't "interview well" for this one.

The tip about the first date spamming is pretty solid imo. You should also already know this, but in case not, have a repository of like 4-5 stories in your head that can be generically applied to most behavioral questions (time you faced a moral dilemma at work, time you received feedback and how you handled it, biggest challenges/weaknesses, etc.). Make sure you smile sometimes too, not too big and fake, practice in front of someone who will give you honest feedback too. My cousin has aspergers, and I had to help him with facial expressions.