Confused with my future (European pathway)

Hey guys! I would like to share my emotions how I feel after sending many emails to managers, recruiters o simply juniors from main Spanish firms.

I finished my undergraduate a year ago. I studied a BSc in Business Management in a non-target Spanish university (probably my big fail). While I was studying, I put all my efforts to learn about investments and financial markets. I thought that would be great to be different from other students (I was a complete stupid).

I got an internship in an audit firm. I thought that it would be fantastic to improve my accounting abilities. So, It would be the correct way to IB. The firm is not a TOP firm in Spain. Even, it's not on the TOP in the city where I studied and worked (Seville). This experience is, definitely, irrelevant for recruiters. In spite of I worked as a senior audit, completing advance tasks for the company.

Then, I decided to go abroad to improve my languages skills. Basic to get the most rubbish job in IB. I chose Australia. I'm not dumb. I decided to spend my best ever year while I was surfing, drinking beers and meeting people. Okay, it's a gap year. My unique gap year in my life (I was wrong again).

When I came back to Spain I thought ''okay, now you are better than before. You always failed in all interviews by your low level of English. You got it. It's the moment to break into the industry like a fucking boss'' (I was wrong again, again).

It was 9 months ago. Corona-virus here. I applied to every firm in Spain (really, everyone). In just one of them, I got an interview where I failed in the first round. The rest of them, I didn't receive a reply.

I think myself ''where am I doing?'' ''Should I be more realist with my skills and apply for rubbish jobs?''

What do you recommend me to do in this time to hit a job?

I attach my resume.