Anyone else low-key want the world to end?

After work and on my days off I don't do much except for networking(which makes me feel like a sycophantic hack), listening to emo music, and jacking off to porn. I have a couple women that have been courting me, and have asked me out but I've denied them all because I don't really see the point. I feel like once you've been with one beautiful woman, you've been with them all. Especially since I spent an entire year and almost all my savings fucking my favorite pornstars when they came to my city. 

I'm not depressed or anything, I'm just tired of the monotony of life, I'm tired of doing things that millions of people before me have done. I often think of the "Tears in Rain" monologue from the film Blade Runner, because I feel like it encapsulates what I want from life: 


I've seen things you people wouldn't believe. Attack ships on fire off the shoulder of Orion. I watched C-beams glitter in the dark near the Tannhäuser Gate. All those moments will be lost in time, like tears in rain. Time to die.

Now of course I don't aspire to live in some dystopian sci-fi future, but I'd really like to a live an exciting life, filled with moments that other people have never and will never see. But the odds of that happening are pretty slim. I'm pretty young(early 20's) so whenever I discuss this with friends they say that life is just getting started and that because of the rate at which technology is progressing, we'll all have the chance to have a plethora of "unique" experiences , but I'm still pretty skeptical. But sadly since I'm not suicidal I guess I'll just have to wait and see. 


Hopefully WW3 kicks off in our lifetime or something, that'd be a true sight to see... I might even enlist. 

 

Drumpfy

I don't want the world to end so some dumbass hick can live out his Punisher fantasy.  However, I'm sure Somalia or South Sudan are in need of skilled immigrants, why don't you move there?

"Some dumbass hick" lol. Your rootless and... let's just call it "globalist" contempt for the common American person is disgusting. 

If you hate the people of this country so much, i'm sure there are places you could move to. In fact, there's one place where you would almost certainly be guaranteed admission. 

 

I'm the exact same as you. Not depressed, not suicidal, not a Socrates either, just genuinely bored with life and questioning why it is I live the same boring, monotonous life every single day. When I was in high school it was the high salary of bankers that motivated me to get into a target and aim for IB. When I was in college I felt a bit of confusion, but nonetheless continued to strive towards my goal. But now? I literally see no point to this life. I spend each day more or less alone in my apartment doing the same thing, and it's gotten to a point where I fully welcome any apocalyptic WWIII-esque fallout. As Murakami confides in his magnum opus 1Q84, "Everyone, deep in their hearts, is waiting for the end of the world to come."

 

Op, get a RASP contract and join the army.

Srs(coming from a veteran).

New proxy wars should kick off soon.

Despite the whole ptsd meme combat is ironically fun and and a rush. Dudes get addicted to it and keep reenlisting because the no deployment life sucks.

Never felt more alive than on a deployment srs

 

Basically true, except I dwell in a luxury high rise in NYC

 

Yea getting a pornstar is not too hard. Stricter screening and way higher cost obviously. Don’t think it’s worth it as you can get another similar high end provider with the PS experience for half the price 

 

More of a novelty thing for me. Fucking Sara Jay after jacking off to her for almost 10 years was an exhilarating experience. 

 

Honestly if I don't make it by 30 (I want to start my business) I'll just say fuck it and move to Africa to become a local warlord because why not

 

Every Psychology professor I talked to in college said that the jury is still out on the long term effects of porn. 

 

You had multiple psych professors… as in you were a psych major? And you asked your psych professors if excessive porn fucks with your brain?

The story’s becoming clearer.

 

Senseless hedonism has gotten you nowhere. Sounds counter intuitive, but take all the pleasure out of your life and do the basics. Also, get involved with a community of any kind.

I felt somewhat similar then I decided to go on leave, cut out social media, sugar, porn, sex, masturbation, drugs for 3 months and was involved in a with a summer camp teaching kids. It literally changed my life. Everything felt pleasurable, especially music, food and conversations, I’d regularly laugh to the point of tears and feel much more passion about everything I did.

As I’ve gotten closer to my regular pattern I’ve noticed some of these benefits start to wane, but I still feel so much better than I did at baseline. You don’t have to go crazy like I did, but some form of dopamine reset could be useful to you.

 

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