I studied Finance Bsc + Msc, now I am stuck - Lost !

Hi, please do not judge...

My story goes, I did a Bsc and Msc in Finance and Real Estate in NYC-USA - (BAC+6) but was never good at numbers/technical part...

Due to visa, I ended up moving to Middle East as I got my first job offer within Big 4 then I moved to a boutique consulting firm TAS Division, then Investor Relations within a REIT which I loved although can be a bit boring in terms of too much administrative work...I used to make USD 120K base salary.

My question is, I have been interviewing with Bulge Bracket Banks (Yes, I succeeded at landing an interview with JP.GS.CITI.BP ETC....and a SFW once for Analyst roles.

I lack in Technical skills and I am not so fan of math/quantitative analysis...Not only I feel it is too late to pick up those skills but I turned 30 already and I am feeling horrible....I dont even know what to do in my career as I've interviewed and tried almost everything....I feel stuck, with corona I got laid off and because of visa issues, cant work in EU/US I am so fucked up...I ended up moving to my parents' house in Africa . I hate being here and my whole lifestyle has changed dramatically...

I'm not complaining but still been stuck for 2 years jobless....dealing with depression and feeling lost....)

do not judge me, I know I should have done things differently but I feel horrible! Yes that was one of the mistakes that many international student make - 

I do not know what to do....career wise....Also, been trying to interview for companies in US and EU but as soon as I mention visa sponsorship they be like no....I am still trying to find a way to move back to US- at the end of the day I lived my most crucial life there - my 20's ! and even ME or Africa has been a downgrade, Ive never felt this frustrated especially looking back as I used to be Top of my class in Elementary and Middle School...