I'm sorry I keep whining and I promise to God this will be my last thread. After this 'll go back into lurk mode and you guys will never hear from me again. I guess I'm just trying to find some comfort and a little peace of mind. I just don't know what to do.
I'm in high school and can't get into a target school. Maybe I could transfer into a semitarget in college but for now no. I won't go into detail but a series of really awful events happened last year that I'm still mentally recovering from. It threw me off my game and I didn't do well. My rank and GPA are dead. Plus I wasn't in many honors classes because I wasn't really planning to go to a top school. I'd never even heard of the ivy league until last year. I only knew a little about Harvard. Most kids at my high school just shoot for local state/ private schools. I guess my parents always figured I'd go to one of their schools(Tulane/LSU).
When I did finally read about all these schools on collegeconfidential I felt horrible. Then people talked about banking and how you wouldn't be succesful unless you went to a top school and I felt even worse. Then I read that some firms won't even hire you if you don't go a top school. I feel like I missed out on a big opportunity and I'll regret it for life. I've actually cried and lost sleep over this It really sucks to think that at age 14 I hurt my future. I'm scared I always wonder if I would be making more money if I'd went to a top school. People in my family do that a lot. They always talk about what their dreams were and what life would be like if they'd pursued them. I don't want to be like that.
Does it get better eventually? Did everything work out for you?
I just wanted to get the most high paying job I could ever possibly get. If I did that I think I would finally have a happy life. Now I've screwed that up/