Is the grass greener or should I be more content?
I'm in an M&A team at a top "prestigious" EB, top ranked (bonuses well over 100% of base, well above market comp) and have a clear path to VP. My team has a great culture and I don't work particularly hard, probably typically 50 hours a week (yes this does ramp up some weeks to typical banking hours, but it is maybe one week every couple of months) - reasonable MDs above me and very competent juniors make it possible. I have significant freedom to manage my own time on my projects/staffings, for example, I'm frequently able to do things on weeknights and I don't remember the last time I had to cancel plans on a Friday night.
From an actual work product perspective, I feel like my work has a tangible impact, e.g. slides I write/draft are used as the final versions in books for CEOs of large cap businesses (>$20bn market cap) and on deals I'm trusted to lead and run key workstreams independently, acting as a VP with an MD above me.
To many people, both inside and outside finance, I have a dream job, where I am paid very well relative to hours worked. Having said that, I don't feel content. I failed to get an offer back when I recruited for private equity and cant help but feel like a failure, even though I knew I would work more and get paid less (wasn't targeting MFs).
In addition to feeling like I failed, I'm also worried about long term progression as the EB model is hire, making it harder for homegrown MDs to compete. However, speaking to friends in PE, long term progression is also far from guaranteed with the 2 and out.
Friends in finance who know about my situation find it crazy that I would try to leave given the pay/hours worked, but wanted to hear WSOs thoughts on my situation and any advice