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I personally have had similar issues/feelings and I think it comes down to personality. For overachievers, it may feel like the right thing to do to beat yourself up about things when you fail, but this is simply not the answer. Believe me, it is only when you stop feeling sorry for yourself that you will get close to achieving the outcome you desire. You need to have short term memory; when Kobe or Michael Jordan missed shots they didn't hesitate before they took the next one. For a long time, I thought my guardian angel would come and get me a BB/EB job and they never did because people are focused on themselves and you have to ask yourself what you can do every day to be the best person you can be.

Screw whoever has "better everything." People vouched for you because they saw something in YOU. 

I bet I have failed more times than you. I get up, dust myself off, and get ready to fail some more, because every failure means you're one closer to success. Just keep going, you only fail when you give up.