Short bio: Full time A1 in a new city. The first weeks starting off were amazing - got my first live, interesting deal. I studied up on it inside out and had a strong social kickoff with new friend networks. I thought this city was unbeatable.
Fast forward three months, I'm so burnt out. I'm on seven live deals within a small team. I work 85-90+ hour weeks, can't make plans with the initial friends I met, and feel my social life slipping by my fingertips. I'm not doing meaningful work - I'm a pitch and diligence bulldozer. I don't even know what my deals are about because as soon as I finish menial work with one I'm hopping right to the next. I'm fully terrified of waking up and hearing the Microsoft Outlook email notification sound because I think I'm late for something or my weekend is compromised.
I'm tired of living this worried and hectic lifestyle. Sure, I might sound like a b**** because this is what IB "should be", but I 100% don't think I can do it. I can maybe take a year of this, but before my health begins to deteriorate, I want to consider other options. Maybe a lateral for better culture (my firm is known for being particularly sweaty) or start following through with HHs in my network for PE/VC. But even beyond that as these options are around a year away - I want to consider doing some interesting work. A risky leap into something like a startup or maybe even MBA, but there is no credible information online on how those risky exits work other than mere anecdotes.
Anyone have advice or some time to chat with me? Could really use a hand. I apologize if content or formatting is messy. Took some time out of work hoping that I'll get some responses to check on later.