Women who stayed in banking

Hi everyone! This post is directed towards women but if you went through a similar situation as a son please feel free to advise. Thanks. I'm from a conservative/religious family where everything seems great on the surface. But I was sexually assaulted early on in college & my college made my life so incredibly difficult by refusing to provide my transcript unless I signed a form to release them of liability. The legal system is tough, slow & hurt me for years. I suffered a lot of abuse from this person & as I was a child <18 it broke me.

My family tried everything to help in the 1st 2 years. This took 7 yrs of my life & I restarted college. Recently, I learned my father had been abusing my mother all along & he is truly an awful person. He is physically, emotionally, financially & sexually abusive towards her in their marriage. The facade of a normal childhood is now ashes. My mother gave up everything to take care of me & I feel tremendous guilt as she would have been much more successful than me. I feel totally broken & the man who did this to me reappeared in our lives via stalking a few months ago. Stalking has next to no meaningful recourse in the law. My mother's chronic health issues became worse & she developed cancer.

I reached a point of feeling exhausted with life & have medical issues of my own to fix. I feel like the worst person alive & seeing my father's abuse daily has left me feeling scared of everything. I lose focus in reg convos (only with him). I feel dumb & slow & worthless as a human being. I have no immediate family near me or siblings. I must save my mother & feel like my identity no longer exists as my father was someone I looked up to all my life.

I always wanted children & it breaks my heart I may not have them. Women who have been through severe abuse, how did you find a way out? Are you in a better place now? There are no supports available to me due to my dad's $ which we get none of. I feel like I'm living in an eternal hell. I read stories of women whove done incredible things after having so little. I live in constant fear where everything looks fine on the surface but I feel so broken.

Do you have any recds of a small job I could in banking? I just need to make around $100-150 k per year. I feel so guilty not having fam to support in the future but at this pt. I just want to find a way to save my mom and live. I fear we'll die young. Thanks. Domestic violence is so much worse than is known. I pray if you're in a similar situation that you are saved.

Qs: If you grew up w/ severe domestic violence, how did you make it out?

If you work in banking as a woman & suffered abuse (marriage etc.) what advice would you give young women today?

Is it uncommon for female bankers to not have any kids? Thank you.