Recruiting: Poor Mental Health

Honestly just a sophomore who's rant. It feels like everything's going to shit. My whole plan for my life seems like it's just crumbling.

Valentine's week broke my heart. My mental health has been teetering, but it's finally in the gutter.

I know I have to get off my ass and network, keep up my GPA, and recruit. But half the time I just want to sit in the corner and cry. In the middle of the day, some intrusive thoughts come in and I begin a battle with my tears. I then don't want to talk to people or else I'll just receive their pity. 

And it's not just one person. It feels like a lot of people in my college dislike me in general. While I'm friends with some people, they're not the people I'm generally around. It's the people in the major who I feel a sneer from. And they have no interest in changing their opinions. It hurts so much more because a big reason the girl I care about left me is that her other friends dislike me, and she herself looks down on me.

I've been having an incredible amount of self-doubt. I can't figure out why people don't like me. Maybe I'm just a fucking loser. But I'll be so much more of one if I lost my motivation and failed recruitment.

Any suggestions on how I should go on?