Fall time depression

Hey everybody, seen a lot of the posts here recently and they were... somewhat cringe for lack of a better word. I don't want to add to that but just posing a question here to see if anyone else feels the same. 

I can't quite put my finger on it, I have a return offer, I'm going to graduate in May, finally back on campus, and got to see a lot of people I hadn't seen in a while. I can't help but feel a little anxious, I don't know why. It happens to me every Autumn. Usually goes in away after a few weeks, but it really sucks to just feel this way. I won't type an essay, anyone else deals with something similar here?

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Yeah man, it really sucks. Do you feel this 'melancholic nostalgia' as well? Like things won't ever be as good as they were even though things are better than ever. Past regrets and memories eating away at you?

 
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'melancholic nostalgia'

I was thinking this because it sounds like you are graduating so college will be over and a new chapter of life begins.

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Actually it's the opposite for me. I'm really looking forward to life. I grew up quite poor, so now making IB money feels phenomenal. My life changed so much - people treat me nicer and girls give me more attention lol. I don't feel financially insecure anymore as I can spend comfortably now.

I do feel sad sometimes looking back at college though. I feel sad because I missed out on the fun that my friends had in college, whether it's partying or traveling. I couldn't afford those anyway. To get to where I am today, I had to sacrifice a lot, including happiness and relationships. Looking back at it, I don't regret anything because I did the right things to set up myself financially for life. It's worth it but can be depressing when looking back sometimes.

Sorry for bad grammar lol was in a rush.

 
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Feeling kinda the same way man. Just started my first year too and my paychecks are more than my parents ever made. Hoping to use some of my money over the next few years to help my parents get close to retirement in some way. College was definitely a good time, but I definitely missed out a lot of times never taking the trips, study abroad, or other things that I didn't want to spend money on knowing my parents were covering some of my bill already even after massive financial aid. Doesn't help that my college has a ton of rich kids so the FOMO got especially real. Can't even call it regrets cause I made the decisions with my financial status then in mind and took the steps to get to where I am. Took the very practical route I guess, which isn't necessarily the fantasy life that many ppl here describe life before work being. The money is great but now that I don't have the time, I spend time wondering how life growing up would've been if I grew up having money. I'm big on saving and investing, but now the issue is how I'll ever be able to enjoy trips or experiences in the future with how shitty work/life will be in finance. 

 

I figured, my mom has some serious depression and anxiety which she takes medication for, luckily it's not that bad for me (nowhere near that bad) but I just hate feeling this way. Unproductive and sad are not good combinations.

 

For me it’s the opposite. Summertime I would feel super disconnected from my friends, missed the structure of school and ECs, etc. going back to school was a source of hope in some ways.

I think this is seasonal in some ways. Like as in the changing temperature, etc leads us as humans to transition hormones within our hormonal cycle. Hope that helps

 

I fucking love fall

waves with no tourists nor 90+ degree temps

football

baseball playoffs

flannel

then again, I love every season

OP, just plan a trip somewhere warm, plan some parties with your college friends, and start getting hype. you're feeling normal levels of anxiety, but if you set goals and have things you're working towards, you should be OK. I felt the same kinda malaise before leaving college but when I refocused on throwing bangers at my frat, spring break with the boys before we all scattered across the country, etc., it hurt less

 

Senior year w/ a return offer is probably one of the best setups ever so I think once you get into the semester things will feel better, I can imagine it’s been a weird experience after the remote schooling.

Would highly recommend prioritizing non-career stuff at this point - get a good gym schedule going, take some interesting classes that are not business-related, say yes to most social plans that come your way, find some time to travel, etc. As you probably got a bit of a sense for this summer, it’s much harder to do all of this when you start working full-time and aren’t on a campus surrounded by friends / peers. 

 

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